October 11

October 11, Sunday:

These days we can see the view outside has changed enirely.The trees are almost leafless and half naked, when you are wandering around you can hear brown- greenish leaves and shrubs under your feet rattling or humming bird chanting under the rain enjoying the short autumn before it ends. There is no more joyous sound of birds chirping songs in the mornings. In the morning as it is is raining cats and dogs.

My only day weekend which means to be so precious to me. I t has been quite long time that I have enforced myself to do so many things. I have point it out in my previous blog stories.

In fact, today I am wondering I need some rest at least half of a day and I need to create this barrier in my mind and respect and do it. Some times I do have ambivalent feeling and then feeling guilt comes to me that why I am not doing enough in my off days, which is I know means to be a self pity personally…

I do go for some Dutch and Chinese study and read some newspapers as usual and listen to the book club BBC which is my favorite and can’t neglect it.


By no means, all these give me motivation and inspired me to be back to my drawing. Confessing that I need to squeeze the time to do some paintings nowadays and all is worth it.